I’ve been having two really shitty issues going on lately. Actually waaaaay more than two if I’m being literal but right now, at midnight, sleep is the main issue.
1) I fall asleep and have awful nightmares all night. About everything and nothing.
2) I don’t actually fall asleep. I don’t sleep at all and stay awake all night, and act like a zombie the next day.
This is really weird because when I was drinking I slept GREAT. I’m sadly realizing now I wasn’t “falling asleep”. I was passing out.
Is this normal? It’s been almost a month! Shouldn’t this shit be done? Or is this how it’s always gonna be…
Obviously the mental issue will never go away. But this is physical, in my brain. I’m barely conscious so What. The. Fuck.
I wish there was an instruction manual on this ‘sober’ thing. Or someone to talk to for some real advice.
Ugh…there is. It’s called AA. I’ve been putting this off. Might need to. I have a few issues with AA….however I’m actually getting tired enough to maybe sleep.
The issues with me and AA will be posted tomorrow.