I’ve been having two really shitty issues going on lately. Actually waaaaay more than two if I’m being literal but right now, at midnight, sleep is the main issue.

1) I fall asleep and have awful nightmares all night. About everything and nothing.

2) I don’t actually fall asleep. I don’t sleep at all and stay awake all night, and act like a zombie the next day.

This is really weird because when I was drinking I slept GREAT. I’m sadly realizing now I wasn’t “falling asleep”. I was passing out.

Is this normal? It’s been almost a month! Shouldn’t this shit be done? Or is this how it’s always gonna be…

Obviously the mental issue will never go away. But this is physical, in my brain. I’m barely conscious so What. The. Fuck.

I wish there was an instruction manual on this ‘sober’ thing. Or someone to talk to for some real advice.

Ugh…there is. It’s called AA. I’ve been putting this off. Might need to. I have a few issues with AA….however I’m actually getting tired enough to maybe sleep.

The issues with me and AA will be posted tomorrow.

3 thoughts on “Sleep

  1. I will always listen. Most nights I’m up late because I have a time here. The last three or four nights of it up till four in the morning. So I know that zombie feeling all too well. Things will get better mama. One day at a time and if one day seems like too much, 1 hour. One minute. Whatever helps you because you can do this. You will do this. I love you 3000.

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  2. Have you ever tried melatonin to help with falling asleep? I use that and usually it works for me. Maybe it’s worth a try if you haven’t already used it before.

    As for AA I don’t have much experience with it outside of attending some I’m assuming events with my Dad as a kid. I didn’t know much more about it until I was older so I don’t know what they would be. I’ve heard it helps. Maybe it’s worth a try. I’m sorry you’re struggling with all of this. Hopefully in time it’ll get better.

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